way too out for me to say it.
Monday, October 26, 2009
obviously its hard to control thh feelings ..
but hw shld i?
hellohhs :]
kinnd of awkward feeling i get today..
ouhhs well.. how should i put it to words?
everything was happening so fast in a minute of rashness..
liyana came over my house tdy..
probably spend 4 hours..
haizxx..
prob tdy focusing on my stupid topic..
haizxx
Poem frm a fren :
Living with heartache , living in an undampened sore
Brightness is there for you to see , but too afraid to let it open..
A chance to love again , but you dont wanna love again.
Waiting Sense Are only there for you to mesmerize...
thnks Hafiqal (:
hw am i suppose to let it out havinng to tell an ugly and stupid truth..
its a way damn borinng topic but well today its an OVER for me..
haizxx ,, like thht poem says...
im meant to wait not to be loved..
Its a scary moment for me..
I had a phobia in liking someone else again..
but nobody can gives me back wht i lost on 11 october..
a moment of darkness tht strikes me tht moment in particular..
i may appear in a smile , but behind th smile thre's a frown ..
i dunnue but i nothing makes me more happier then ever..
guess its fate for me..
tht 5 months of waiting will soon be over for me..
[ 4 more days left ]
no more heartbreaking or love or anything..
it takes situation for me to realise such things..
but somehow , i may mesmerize things back..
but no point cause , i aint getting th things tht i want.
for now ,, everything gonna be fine and normal i really hope so..
left th only one thing for me to b having a smile bck..
-liyana to be happy always!
-let her be withh thh one she likes
weee :]
heehs (:
so ,, thhts my sorrows..
now its over :]
i hope so..
5 months ..
too over ..
and starting a new one i guess..
i aint being paranoid// but just a thing to say..
hmm..
thhts all..
but tomorrow schh?
haizxx..goddamn piece of shit,..haizx
-thanks liyana for being there for me :]
buhhbyes.. WEEE^^
S.O.S - needing help..
